February 2012
14 posts
Nobody ever says "when I grow up I want to be a...
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sometimes I get sick of this whole "learn to love...
and I just want to curse and scream and pout and eat ice cream until I feel sick, because fucking hell I want somebody else to love me. Other people have a family or a best friend or something. I have, um, cats. Great.
Don’t tell me to love myself in the same breath you’re telling me you don’t want to talk to me, asshole. Fuck. Healing sucks. Old feelings suck. I stuffed them...
pouring out thoughts
I’m forcing myself to write because I’ve been “blocked” for months now. This is likely to suck. Whatevs.
I feel lately like I don’t want to be around other trans people, like I don’t need it. But maybe I do need it and I’m avoiding it and that’s why I feel so… stuck. I’m pleased with my results on T but I don’t really care that...
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chimicherry cherrychanga chimicherry cherrychanga...
IMPORTANT SELF CARE THINGS OBTAINED.
jasietaraevangesen:
definatalie:
Do you know what leads to deep guilt and negative self talk? When people demand you tell them why you need to do certain things. Like paint your nails.
I doubt you really want me to tell you why I paint my nails. You just want me to feel bad.
And guess what? I SHAN’T! In fact, I hope you manage to find adequate time and peace to create your own self care...
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Gotta gtfo
So I’ve been getting more and more depressed the longer I live in this house, and last night was the last straw. Housemate knocked on my door at 11pm, woke me up (I went to bed at 9) and demanded the last $100 of my rent (I already paid 2/3 of it, in cash, well before it was due). I said, calmly, that my check was a day late and I’d have the money next day. Housemate proceeded to...
January 2012
9 posts
i cannot keep living with people who hate me
it is going to drive me fucking crazy before i get out
Just a reminder to people in privileged positions
ohfuckitsoprah:
luckythinks91:
brandnewjones:
bana05:
modernistwitch:
Exceptionalism is not complimentary.
“But you’re not like the rest of them, you’re cool!”
“I can’t believe you know so much about (x thing), I’ve never seen a (member of y marginalized group) talk about this with such authority!”
- it pits us against other people in our group (fuck that) - it reifies inequitable...
When I was a kid, I didn't have a laptop, iPod,...
jasietaraevangesen:
torayot:
name-redacted:
esmeweatherwax:
quantumscoot:
I think this post is fucking stupid because hey
You could just say we grew up on records and lomos and we were better kids
fucking nostalgia-wanking. get over yourselves. I mean it’s not as if SOCIETIES AND CULTURES EVOLVE, RIGHT? NO NOT AT ALL
^^^^^
LET’S ALL GO BACK TO CAVES AND DRAWING WITH MUD
True, kids...
queensandqueers asked: Your last post is awesome. I also think it's important for trans people to know that physical transition alone won't make them stop feeling that misery you talked about. It's a change that takes place within yourself, not on the outside. Support groups seem to be lacking in both these perspectives.
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On being "miserable" [trigger warning: dysphoria]
oh hey look I’m writing about gender again
So I was at this FTM support group the other night, and while confidentiality prevents me from recounting too much of the conversation, someone was wondering how they know whether they really need to transition. And he brought up the question of whether people had been miserable before they transitioned, and a bunch of people immediately jumped in...
Feeling a bit purposeless and lonely and just generally angsty tonight :(
December 2011
11 posts
tumblr
is way more stressful than it really should be.
New Year's Resolution
I hardly ever make these, because I am against the idea of a holiday tradition which is mostly used to beat oneself up (usually over body image, at that). BUT I thought of a good one:
In 2012, I resolve not to stress myself over, argue about, give credence to, or feel guilty because of opinions that, so far as I can tell, are almost exclusively held by white people. E.g.;
“Eww,...
everyone else: i'm getting an ipad and a laptop and $300 worth of clothes and...
me: MASTER HAS GIVEN DOBBY A SOCK
“Don’t you dare, for one more second, surround yourself with people who are not...”
– Jo Blackwell-Preston (via sleepydumpling
)
Watchohfuckitsoprah:
sofapizza:
funnyordie:
Bad Lip Reading: Rick Perry’s “Strong” Ad
Rick Perry weighs in on Rogen, dexterous foul and more.
don’t bring any o’ them fake chickens round here!
i’ll fight a chicken with hands
a real chicken
…
and i poo’d in space
Hey Tumblr
Still struggling with my depression, plus the kid I babysit had pretty major surgery about a week and a half ago. Trying to straighten out my shit + take care of the kiddo + Chanukah shopping is taking up more time than I even really have.
So that’s where I’ve been.
genderqueer:
Hollywood is gay: All my favorite British men have dressed in drag, I’m starting to think it’s a requirement
watsonyourharryteninch:
John Barrowman (The most fabulous man)
John Simm (Master of my heart)
Benedict Cumberbatch (Sherlly, that little black dress looks brilliant)
David Tennant (Will always be my Doctor, Doctor Davina)
Matt Smith (Doctor, Who is...
November 2011
43 posts
If you have enough privilege that
a) you can get everything you need to have a comfortable holiday season without needing to take advantage of sales, and
b) “buying nothing” is a political statement for you
then I really don’t want to hear it. Don’t shop today if you don’t feel like it - god knows I stay the hell away from crowds - but don’t act sanctimonious about being able to buy everything...
I’m sad and I can’t sleep and I have a tummyache and I want my mommy :(
but then my cat just jumped up on my bed to snuggle <3
that awkward moment when you finally get up early,...
FML
So I probably have a pinched nerve in my neck :(
My arms keep randomly going numb (usually the right arm, but if I try to relieve it by doing stuff with the left instead, then the left goes numb), and pain keeps me up at night. My fine motor skills also deteriorate immediately when the numbness starts. Good ol’ Dr. Google tells me I probably have a pinched nerve, possibly from a herniated disc (this seems likely since the pain and numbness...
I just want someone to cuddle with me :(
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relevant to previous post:
keelanrosa:
Cissexists, if you want to be taken seriously, you really ought to quit using ‘But boys and girls are different!’ as an argument against trans* people. This is not new. This is not a huge revelation. This is not even a valid argument.
Dirty little secret (and by ‘dirty little’ i mean ‘huge, blatantly obvious, how did you not already know this’ secret) time: we already know. That’s...
this is my four hundredth and second post
mappingindiana:
and i am going to use it to angst about regret
because i have that
about my undergrad degree
god
i wish i could go back and shake little seventeen year old me
look
this is not your fault
stop
you’re just hurting yourself
also, jesus christ, EAT SOMETHING
and then further back to little twelve year old me
but i wouldn’t shake me
i’d shake my mother
I have enough...
